Ok, so now I’m a posterchild for Fox 13?? My friend Hope decided that since I’m the only person she knows with breast cancer, I should talk on camera. Hmmm. It took a while for me to say OK. Not because I don’t think I have a worthy story but I wasn’t sure if I wanted my agent, my ‘outside’ friends, those who don’t know me but will, to know. Cancer is an extremely inconvenient disease. It may not be debilitating at the moment for me but it interrupts my life flow. It turns what was once easy (humming along day to day) into something difficult and it pisses me off. I really don’t want to come across as bitter, angry, spoiled or negative. Hope said I was great. A great interview. Of course I was. Broadcast is my thing. It’s the message I worry about. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see. The piece is set to air before the Cancer Walk on Oct. 9.
As for the rest of my life. Peace has resumed. I’m back from San Diego which turned out to be much less of a vacation than I had hoped. Sage was like the fricking Energizer Bunny and I had no one to hand her off to. It was all me. No daycare, no sitter, no friends. My parents just shook their heads and turned away. That doesn’t mean I was disappointed in them. Hell, if I was in a room where a kid was acting like Sage, I would love to walk away. It’s just that I couldn’t and she wore me down. Which in turn stressed me out because damn it I’m supposed to be doing what I can to get better. Stress does the opposite.
I also made the terrible error in judgment thinking that it would be fun to share a room with my daughter. Next time, she goes someplace else. At least then I will get enough sleep to handle the stress of the day.
I came home to some killer fall Park City weather. It’s 83 outside with a cool breeze and vibrantly blue skies at 5:45 p.m. I lifted today and tomorrow I’ll try to hike or climb. Best to enjoy the weather before it gets rainy and muddy.