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Trainers Hurt So Good – Day 2 of Study

I went to bed hungry. After dropping Sage off this morning, however, all I had eaten was a banana. It dawned on me. We have no food in the house I’m allowed to eat. You want carbs and processed sugars? Come see me. Raw nuts, Greek yogurt, fresh fruits and veggies? I had to make a run to Park City Market pronto.

Fifty Five dollars later I had food for the week. Healthy food is unhealthy for my wallet. I got home, tossed back a few raw nuts, cooked up all chicken breasts for the fridge, boiled the hard-boiled eggs and made myself a half a turkey sandwich. I could only eat about ¾ of it before feeling full. It’s just not the same without chips or French fries.

I took my pill, did some house stuff then headed out for my first workout. First in three months since wrecking my foot and first on this trial. I was nervous. We did a five-minute warm-up on the elliptical and moved to the machines- chest press, front rows, dumbbell curls, skull crushers, inverted crunches, three sets starting with 15 reps and going to fail. We wrapped it all up with a 30- minute-interval sesh on the elliptical. Not only did I survive but the foot never bothered me. She’s back! We’ll meet again on Friday and Saturday.

Dinner? A teeny weeny WOW bar, Greek yogurt and an apple. Yes, I’m going to bed hungry again.

I’m a Guinea Pig

Ten pounds, 30 days. Game on. I walked in announcing to Ryan that he was on his own for dinnertime carbs starting tonight. Let me tell you, the shit hit the fan. WHAT?! That’s right; it’s all chicken and veggies for the next month. If you want potatoes, noodles, rice, you’re on your own. We fought for the next 20 minutes and I finally revealed my hand.

I was going to be part of a research project to test the effectiveness of a nutritional supplement. The project involves taking a pill twice a day with meals, restructuring my diet and working with a trainer three days a week. How could I say no? I’m finally walking again after breaking my fifth metatarsal in August and it’s only now that I can start working out again. With ski season only weeks away, why wouldn’t I jump at the chance for the best preseason training I could hope for? I would get into shape, look hot for the holidays, help with a company’s campaign and do it all for free. I was made for this.

Ryan thinks I’m going to die taking some unknown ‘drug’ but the truth is I had the cancer doc go over the list of ingredients before agreeing to sign up and I read all sorts of info on the product (I can’t reveal what it is until I get that cleared by the company). It’s been on the market for a few years and it’s even sold on Amazon. No negative side effects were discussed but there were various comments to the effect that the pill is untested. Not anymore! TMG sent a handful of actors over to the offices to see which of us would make good candidates. We had to want to lose 10-15 pounds (no more), be willing to take the ‘before’ photo (that means me standing in gym shorts and a sports bra without tightening my tummy muscles), workout at least 3 times a week with a professional trainer, 30 minutes of cardio at least 5 days a week, follow the diet, take the pill and take some “after” pics. It sounded doable.

The photos on Friday were painless. Today, however, I met with a trainer at Xcel Fitness who went over my new diet. No sugar, no carbs at night, no milk (almond milk in my coffee is ok), no juice, no melon, no chips, no pretzels, no noodles. Let me give you an example of a typical food log for Jill:

Breakfast-

2 pieces of bacon

2 pumpkin pancakes w/ maple syrup

Coffee w/ skim milk and Truvia

Lunch-

Plain regular-sized beef hotdog and Ruffles

Dinner-

Cheese tortellini w/ tomato sauce

Broccoli

Garlic biscuit

Sm. Piece of pumpkin Bundt cake from Corner Bakery

Snacks-

Jello

Orange

Chocolate truffle

1 can of diet soda

This is my food log starting tomorrow:

(6 mini meals)

1 slice of whole wheat toast w/ honey

2 eggs

Orange

2 oz Turkey

Apple

5 almonds

½ c. brown rice

3 oz chicken breast

Broccoli

Greek yogurt w/ 1 Tbs Agave

5 almonds

Chicken

Broccoli

Snack

Almond Milk breeze w/ protein scoop.

Luckily, coffee is ok (w/ almond milk and Truvia) but all that Halloween candy is off limits. Yep. The hardest part is going to be the diet.

Tomorrow, we’ll see how the exercise part goes. No pain, no gain, right? Or should I say loss?

P.S. My 5’6″ frame currently weighs in at 120 lb- naked, in the morning. Why do I want to lose 10 pounds you might ask? I want to get ripped and strong; right now I’m soft and weak from my summer of ‘healing’. 🙂

Takoda Takes Third

Oh Wow. I think I just had my first, and last, conformation dog show. What was I thinking? The experience was beyond humiliating. In fact, I was borderline tears more than once. It wasn’t the people there; or the judges. It was the scene. I was so out of my league and clueless; and, of course, it showed. Maybe if I was 8 like a few of the girls handling their Aussies, it would have been a different day altogether.


Two days ago I got wind of an ASCA dog show in Murray Park. I figured what the hell? For 10 bucks I could have a judge look over Takoda and tell me what kind of aesthetic shape he was in. I didn’t know that it would be as much about me as the dog. I had to borrow a collar and leash (I’ve never ever used what they had); someone trimmed up his ears and rear for me; another nice woman gave him a quick brush; I happened to have a Lickety Stick in the car so at least I wasn’t begging for cheese bits as well.


All of the ladies there were super and I got a crash course in conformation handling. I’m betting this is something you and the dog can’t learn in an hour?

We quickly taught him to stand instead of sit in front of me (which is what he does for obedience) but I neglected to learn what I was supposed to do in the ring. Apparently you always stay behind the other dogs even if one stops or goes off course. I trotted past and was ordered to get back in line.


You don’t run, you walk fast to get your dog to trot alongside of you. I looked like I was running.


When the time came to go up against two other male pups, Takoda did decently for his first time and I sucked bigger than a teenager getting a helium hit. I struggled to keep him standing. At the end, he placed third- out of three.

I did ask the judge for feedback which was the whole reason I chose to do this in the first place. He said, “An experienced handler can make a new dog look like a champ. An inexperienced handler can make a champ look like a [loser].” I was that inexperienced handler. L Did I mention that I was in jeans and everyone else was dressed for a corporate job interview?


To his credit, the only thing the judge saw as a negative was that my dog’s chest wasn’t as “full” as it could be; but he said it wasn’t a dealbreaker. So I guess Takoda could be a contender if I wanted him to be. I don’t. We’re going to work on obedience, rally and agility instead. Perhaps I won’t feel like such a complete loser.

Auditions Techniques Class 2

 

We’re reading a handout to kick off the class as people wander in. We are asked to read a graph from the handout and make it sound as if it’s “me” speaking to everyone. Bummer. I’m five minutes late and don’t get to read out loud. I love reading aloud. Ah well.

Again, it’s time to discuss what is Talent. It’s someone who does something better than most. But there’s competency and there’s virtuosity (where you put your individual stamp on it; doing something with your particular style).

But you can’t call yourself talented. It’s got to come from an external source. Someone else has to make that assessment or you’ll sound like an ass.

 

BUILDING CHARACTER- YOURS

Treat everyone with respect. Jerod Hess (Napoleon Dynamite) was a 2nd Ad on Baptist at a BBQ. He made friends with everyone.

 

Skills are techniques that allow you to rise and get better and be in the places where you can be seen. You can’t just play in your backyard. Just like tennis, acting is not a singles’ sport. You need to know what your skills are so audiences can perceive them. Otherwise they don’t exist.

 

Doing community theater? That’s you just being happy to put on a uniform and show up. Know how to do what the job requires. Actors are the biggest dumbasses on the planet. They think they can jump right to the top without developing their craft. Find out what the industry standard is and how to get there. Don’t ignore it because there aren’t that many roles made just for you.

 

 

The zenith of acting is a feature film. Length? 70pp or longer. Size matters. Are you right for the part? Who knows? Let the casting crew make that decision. You just might walk in and change their mind. Maybe you are the ‘wrong’ age or race. But still go for it.

It’s not even the acting that gets you the job. It’s everything else. It’s ‘you’ the human being. Acting is frosting before the cake. Don’t think it’s your acting. Remember the 15 second rule.

 

 

There’s a 90 percent unemployment rate for actors. Yet there are not enough qualified and excellent actors to fill the few jobs out there. Watch television and see. There’s a lot of bad acting going on.

 

TIME TO SHINE

Don’t feel so protective of what you prepare. You are here for them, show it off. fyi- it will never go the way you want it to but casting peeps expect you to not be perfect.

Just make sure that you are communicating the idea behind the words/your choices. Slow down; don’t go too fast.

 

Walk into the room and say to yourself, “I love it here.” This is where I get to do what I love to do. Relish the opportunity to finally get to audition. Don’t think about how you just want to get it over with.

 

When they ask you to talk about yourself, don’t state the obvious- I’m an actor and want to be in your movie. Or I’m really nervous. Or I live in Utah.

They do want you to talk about something commercial. Don’t talk about your kids or your dog (unless of course it’s an audition for a Purina or Toys R Us spot). Talk about your acting work- I just got done with project x, just got back from y. Talk about a movie you’ve seen and that you’re excited about.

 

Don’t try to second guess the director. You can’t answer the question what do they want? Sometimes even they can’t. Maybe you can ask your agent but there are dumb questions in an audition so be careful. If you don’t know what they want going into that room, you’re not supposed to. Or they will tell you.

 

Be prepared for the freak sitch. You walk in and weird stuff can happen- the director might think- you look like my ex-wife so you’ll never get that job.

If they ask you something just answer it. Don’t get into your head and try to analyze why they want to know something. Any conversation the casting director or director tries to have with you is a good thing. Don’t second guess. You can do that after you leave. They don’t waste time. They wouldn’t ask if they didn’t want to talk with you.

 

Don’t lie to get yourself the job! Can you ride a horse? Can you take a punch? Frank got asked that once and he answered, “no, but I fall down really well.” Personally, I’d say I’m willing to learn if I thought it was something I could learn to do well between the audition and the actual gig. I seriously doubt that JLo knew Krav Maga before “Enough” or Ralph Macchio could do that stork thing before “The Karate Kid.” But know your limits. I can learn to ballroom, to sing, to skydive but I ain’t ever going to ride motorcycles.

 

NEVER COME IN AS THE CHARACTER.

 

He CD has a job to do and they have deadlines you don’t have. Actors are usually the last piece of the puzzle. They are not looking for brilliance. Just to do what’s necessary, understand the script, be pleasant and then leave. Walk in thinking “I’m the best actor you’re going to see today” (but don’t say this out loud. Duh. You’ll be an asshole.)

 

Frank is happy most actors screw this up. Makes him look good.

 

3 rules:

Never state the obvious, “My first piece is Hamlet” not “My first piece is scene x from play y and it’s about…” If it’s obvious to you, don’t share it- I’m sorry I haven’t showered. Never offer unsolicited info- like you didn’t shower. Don’t bring in clippings in a book. Don’t make excuses. I’m sorry I have a cold. Speak above the cold.

This is not the time to go down memory lane with the director unless they want to. Don’t talk money (how much is this going to pay, is there a per diem?)

 

WHEN CAN YOU WORK?

Keep your options open. You can do anything, at any time. Say yes until you have to say no. Try not to use words like definitely. Shit happens. Use your agent if something comes up. Let them handle the difficult conversations.

 

WHAT SCREWS WITH YOUR MOJO?

Anxiety review- your greatest source of anxiety?

a-The competition. They’re something, I’m nothing.

b-Did I make the right choice? Fyi- There are no right or wrong choices. Just make one.

c-The slate can cause anxiety. This is the chance to shake hands and say I’m not psycho and I’m well-adjusted. Everything’s fine; hire me. The professional you.

Make sure you rehearse how to breathe and leave a room. Rehearse your slate. Rehearse saying thank you and leave.

 

Journaling outside of class is a way to talk and listen to each other. Sharing. Even if it’s just a few sentences. It helps Frank gauge what you’re getting from the class – his diagnostic.

 

MEMORIZING REVIEW

Read the first line. Read it over and over in monotone until it becomes just sounds. Repeating sounds – fast- till you can’t screw up. Divorce yourself of all choices.

Hold script then head up and deliver to focus.

Go back down and read the next line. Now go back and speak it in first person, honoring the punctuation. Now the sounds become words. There are no Oscars for memorization. Don’t worry about how fast or how you do it.

Once you have the lines down, figure out the given circumstances so you give it substance.

Monologues are one person plays.

Next thing is to say your monologue as you.

Have a relationship and an objective. I.e. want to know where he’s going; telling him he has to marry me, making him feel guilty for empty promises.

Monotone, then speak like you, then have relationship and objective. But you have to know those words so well that you can do anyway. It’s liberating when you don’t have to worry about the words.

You can add a line of subtext just to help yourself (i.e. think about what you really want to say but then say the actual line in place of what you want to say. I.e. instead of saying ‘you’re a piece of shit,’ you say you were leading me on all this time? But you’re THINKING- you’re a piece of shit.

 

We don’t talk about emotions; we deal in ‘subtext’. The ‘e’ thing just happens.

 

Btw, you should be able to memorize five pages of straight dialog in one day. Learn some then walk away and come back.

 

Figure out ‘colors’- how you get from being mad, to on the ground begging and sobbing.

 

11 BEATS TO AN AUDITION

The first 3 beats are usually the most terrifying. You’re outside the door. You know you’re next because you’ve studied who’s ahead of you. You have your resume and headshot in hand. Outside of the door, Boys, check your fly and palms. We don’t want slimy palms in case you’re shaking hands.

Accept that there will be that ‘oh shit’ moment. Breathe and move.

Walk in. Speak to whoever speaks to you. Don’t rush up and hug or shake someone’s hand.

Plan an aesthetic distance for your monologue. Enter the room like a well-adjusted human, make eye contact, and say hi.

Wait for permission to say my name. Stand still.

I’m Jill Adler. I’ll be reading Rosemary from Picnic by William Inge

Or my first piece is … x from y by z, then ‘step out’ (do not start acting where you introduced yourself and your piece)

Move somewhere on the sundial. Lose your focus, breathe, see, and speak. Take your time. As soon as you move, you are the character.

Play diagonal across the eye line of the director. NEVER play to the director or the person that’s auditioning you (unless for some reason they ask you to). Head up and parallel to the floor (eye line). Pick something real to look at.

Think something BEFORE YOU SPEAK- have a thought in your head. Imagine that the person you’re about to talk to just said something to you so you’re responding. Or your partner just got up to leave and you’re wondering why.

Move your body when you’re one third of the way through your monologue.

 

Rehearse your entrance all the time!!

Hi I’m Jill Adler. My piece is…. Lose your focus, step out of the initial space, breathe, look up find focus, think, and then speak.

 

NEXT WEEK

Be off book for the monologue.

 

Type a reflection for the yahoo groups.

MRI NEXT WEEK!!


It’s been two years since my docs at the Huntsman Cancer Center gave me a scoot on the butt and sent me on my merry way. But I come back- every six months. And every six months my reserve is tested. I’m given a mammogram or MRI, then asked to sit in a room. If you’ve never had a cancer scare, the best way to describe this wait is – remember when you went to took your first HIV test and the clinic called to say your results are in but that you had to see them in person? You couldn’t get the news over the phone. That time between the phone call and the chat. That’s what it feels like to have an MRI or Mamm now. Before 2009, a mammogram would have been routine. Like getting a flu shot or blood test. Now there’s always that ‘what if?’ And judging from tales of relapses, the ‘what if?’ never goes away.

I read a post on my FB page today. Longtime Salt Lake City news anchor Mary Nichols was recently diagnosed with early stage breast cancer. I felt like I had to respond personally. When it happened to me I knew NO ONE with cancer. My aunt had died of pancreatic cancer in 2002 so I couldn’t talk to her. My colleague Joni heard through the grapevine and reached out to me. I had no idea. Like me, she showed the cancer card on a need to know basis. It helped to just hang out with her for coffee. We would breeze in and out of the subject but mostly it was nice to sit awhile with someone who knew what I was going through.

So I went on Mary’s blog to write this:

Hi Mary- We don’t really know each other but we have a bunch of mutual friends in the industry. I often forget that I have a breast cancer story. It’s the occasional weird look of concern and the way someone asks “how are you doing” that reminds me; or seeing a post like this on FB.
I’m so sorry to hear that you’ll have to go through what I did. It was quite an excruciating process. As a reporter, I too dug and dug, did all my research, even spoke personally with Doctors outside of Utah. 
I was diagnosed with Stage 1 Breast cancer in 2009, had a lumpectomy and there was no spreading to the lymph nodes (they can’t know until surgery). They say they got it all with surgery but I still went through chemo and radiation based on results from what’s called an oncotypeDX test (developed here in Utah!).
Now, I go in every 6 months for either a mammogram or MRI. So far, still clean. I have my next MRI next week. Anyway, I just want to say that your journey will be personal to you. No matter how hard you search for similarities. So don’t let ANYONE tell you stories of people in their life that have had cancer unless it has a positive outcome. You don’t need it. 
Here is the chronicle of my bout with breast cancer.

Coming Out

If you need someone to talk to, I’m here. I get it.

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